The Dark Beginning 🌑
In high school, I was battling multiple addictions, psychological issues, and an overall lack of purpose. Most of my days were filled with doomscrolling to seek the validation I desperately needed back then.
I was watching porn 3 times per day because I got rejected so much, I forgot what it meant to pursue genuine relationships outside of just looks. I was smoking, abusing cannabis, drinking on weekends to black out, even messing with synthetic substances like benzene to completely escape from reality.
"This was me during my darkest period - trapped in cycles that kept me from my true potential"
The Grace of Small Changes ✨
Somewhere along the line, I adopted some good habits by the grace of God. These small shifts would become the foundation of my entire transformation.
Started going to the gym with friends
and suddenly needed less stimulation from alcohol
Discovered YouTube videos from life coaches
who prescribed meditation, breathwork, and reading, so I implemented it, not even being aware of the spiritual path I was being guided on
Started meditation, breathwork, and reading during COVID
I was forced to isolate at home for a minimum of 2 months, and that is where everything shifted
The Transformation Point 🚀
I conquered all my addictions within those 2 months, and did not relapse for 3 years. This transformation was so profound that I felt called to share this knowledge with others.
I started with some free clients, got some testimonials, and eventually started charging $250 for 4 hours of my time—a ceiling I was not aware of as being locked in my subconscious mind.
The Series of Setbacks ⚡
My financial struggles intensified when I was let go from multiple jobs. Little did I know that this was just the universe pointing me in a different direction, with more challenges awaiting my journey.
Carpenter
Never learned any skills that were required for the job, so we decided it was mutually beneficial to part ways.
Barista
One of the baristas who had a grudge against me decided to split, and I was the only one who got let go.
Waiter and DJ
Did some waitering and DJ gigs, but these were temporary and didn't fulfill me.
Barman
Eventually got exploited as a barman by employers who took advantage of my situation.
Insurance Salesperson
The final straw was when I was manipulated with hidden seating fees at a life insurance firm.
The Sales Discovery
At the insurance firm, I discovered my love for sales—not because I loved the product, but because I read "The Psychology of Selling" by Brian Tracy.
The visualization concepts resonated with my spiritual understanding of metaphysics and quantum transmutation, leading me to create digital products where I upsold my own services.
The Lost Year 🌪️
After starting this endeavor, I became lost in the numbers, always flexing authority content, trying to seem like I had some form of financial success when I had no foundation.
I had no job, and returning to a soulless corporate 9-5 felt like stabbing a knife in my own heart. I was unaware of a new way because my survival instincts were getting in the way of my creative spirit.
For an entire year, I was suffering:
During this time I relapsed on most of my addictions except for smoking and drinking. I felt like a fraud. Who am I to teach people if I can't even embody the message I'm preaching?
The Cape Town Crisis 🌊
At the beginning of 2025, me and my family went on vacation to Cape Town, where I planned to stay for 3 months looking for a job so I could spend my days on the beach. I failed miserably.
LinkedIn Applications
Sent hundreds of applications with no success
Cold DMs
Sent hundreds without any success or connections
Social Posts
Posted hundreds of times without finding work
My life felt like it was flashing before my eyes. My parents were already back home, and my sister got a job at the gym I was working at as a receptionist.
Things seemed like they were going great for other people in life, while I was somehow messing everything up.
I contemplated suicide during this period of my life many times, simply because I had no purpose, and every act at creating purpose just seemed to burn me out with no financial return.
"The beach in Cape Town where my spiritual awakening would soon unfold"
The Surrender and Breakthrough 🙏
Eventually I just decided to let go and surrender. I prayed to God for guidance. I said that if there is a path for me, I want to know what it is, and I'll give up every deceptive scheme my mind plays to survive.
The Sacred Morning
One morning I woke up, went to the beach, and decided to leave the technology at home. I was fasted, so I was feeling light and clean. I jumped into the ocean and let the cool waters soothe my nervous system.
When I got out I proceeded to meditate. Eventually the sun got intense so I decided to walk back to the apartment I was living in. Still not using my phone, I sat on the couch and just proceeded to become still again.
The entire room became one thing. I was completely sober but felt like I was tripping on acid. I can only describe this experience by drawing from religious traditions concepts of the divine...
The Business Revelation 💡
I felt so connected with everything around me that it became crystal clear what building a business is truly about:
It's not about me, my financial problems, or an act of self-service of any kind.
It is an act of service to others, paving forward an intimate path where people collaborate on making that collective vision come true.
Everything has a purpose, and there are people waiting for me to serve them. It might not be now, but the Universe itself will conspire to make it happen.
The Root Cause Realization 🌱
I eventually realized that building this surface-level business was consuming my soul, which is why I relapsed on nicotine, porn, and cannabis to numb the pain I knew it would take to make the decision that things need to change.
(This is why working with a coach at that time was not even helpful, because even when they gave me all the tools and knowledge, I was still drowning in meaninglessness.)
The Healing Process
Once I realized this, it became easier to address my addictions at the root cause. I stopped using them as crutches, let go of those that did not serve me, and only kept cannabis because of the medicinal properties involved (something I use very responsibly without damaging my health).
Once I stopped working on a brand that felt like someone else, I was able to place my focus on other aspects of my reality, which opened room for more possibility.
The Synchronistic Job 🎾
After my dark night of the soul in Cape Town, I returned back home, and within a month, my dad told me that our neighbors are looking for a booking assistant to work at Padel Farm SA.
I was skeptical at first, fearing the exploitation, manipulation, and deceptive tactics of the corporate world, but somehow (remember that guiding force), I decided to give it a shot.
Better Pay
The pay is better than any job I've ever had
Work as Play
I literally do work that feels like play because it is a sport
Natural Environment
The environment is situated in nature and I get to work on my business
Compassionate People
The people are compassionate, personal, and empathetic, making it a blessing to work with
Local Coaching
I get to develop my local career into a sustainable and profitable practice through coaching
"From bedroom practice to actual gigs - proving that consciousness-based skill development leads to real opportunities"
The Integration 🔮
I'm still trying to figure out how to package my knowledge into a niched-down skillset that is easy to understand, but then I understand that this entire journey is a story that can't be put into a box.
This offer can't be limited to a topic, skill, or niche—it's an identity, an archetype, a state of consciousness.
This is why I am focusing on consciousness as the main subject here, which is the phenomenon that transcends the separation between soft, hard, and meta skills, and acts as the foundation upon which those skills are built.
This is a revolution in consciousness. An example of what happens when you take those lemons life gave you, and you turn it into something powerful by squeezing every bit of potential into reality.